I can't help but wonder if we're pushing Lilly to be a big girl, too soon. With the new baby coming anyday now (okay, 24 days still, but I'm hopeful!), it seems like we're rushing Lilly into new milestones in order to prepare our lives for a newborn again.
For example, tonight is Lilly's first night in her "big girl bed"...and while I am the one who has been bugging Aaron to get the bed, I sit here now wondering if she's really ready. She never once tried to climb out of her crib. She's never ONCE slept anywhere in our house other than her OWN BED (crib). From the first day she came home from the hospital, Lilly has taken her naps and has slept at night IN HER OWN BED. She has always had a very strict bedtime routine, which she has always embraced easily. We never have to fight Lilly to go to bed ....until tonight!!! And although her first night in her big girl bed has been smooth sailing (so far)...I still wonder if she's TRULY ready.
She went to bed at her normal bedtime, 7pm. She slipped out of bed before I even got to her door!!! I sat next to her bed and "explained" what was going on. "This is your big girl bed. You're a big girl Lills! No more baby bed! It's for baby Anderson!"....Followed by me nearly sprinting out the room before she could follow me! After nearly twenty minutes of crying at her door (her, not me!), I heard her breathing heavily through the door...I peaked in to find her asleep near the door. I put her in her bed, and she's been sleeping there since.
I know that every child has to grow up and move onto new things....But I just hate the thought that my baby girl isn't really my BABY anymore. There's a NEW baby coming, making Lilly the big girl. I just fear that we've rushed into this second baby, and that we didn't give Lilly enough alone time with us. I know that we're both excited about baby Anderson, but I can't help but feel sorry for Lilly. I just PRAY that she never feels neglected or ignored! I talked to Aaron about it and he assures me that she'll always be our little "Lills" and that we have nothing to worry about. I'm excited to embark on the path of being a mommy to a new baby again, but I just worry about my little Lills.
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My poor Granddaughter...wait until I contact DFC. Actually she will be fine, she may hate her brother for taking her bed. But after years of therapy she should be fine. As long as the overlook the mass murders. Don't worry Adam always got shafted like that also.
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