I was lucky enough to go with my husband and a couple of our close friends from church, so during lunch each day we sat together and discussed the day's lectures. It was no surprise that on the second day, our friend walked out and said "well guys, how do we tell our families that we're quitting our job and changing the world?" It was truly that inspirational. I sat there during the first day and just questioned my job, questioned myself in what role I was taking in being a world changer (none), and have ever-since been devising a plan to get where I want to be in my professional life.
There were so many incredible speakers at the Leadership Summit, but one that stuck out in my mind was Erica Ariel Fox, the author of Winning from Within. She spoke about Performance Gaps...and the thing that I keep going back to is this idea of "what you do at your best versus what you actually do in real life" It seems that this defines me...I create this idea of what I want to do and where I want to be and how I can change the world (errr, my own life!). But then I have all these reasons why these things just cannot happen. I talk myself out of a change because "I'm a mom and I just crave that stability that I already have in my job," or because "We just bought this new house and we need my income too," or because "I don't know what anything else like that looks like," or because "What if I fail?" or because "I don't even know where to start."
I feel it in my guts that I can do so much more, but I am so scared of the unknown that I never start anything new. And so continues this gap of what I want to do, what I'm currently doing, where I want to go, and where I'm currently at. This vicious cycle of being "good enough" versus "being better" is killllling my soul.
I suppose it's time that I "Figure it Out"
