The Best Birthday Ever!

I don't mean to brag but....I may be the BEST damn birthday surpriser EVER! So yesterday was Aaron's 24th birthday (youngin', huh?!). I knew I didn't have TONS of money to spend, but I also knew I wanted this to be a VERY special birthday as he typically has to work on his birthday! I knew the BEST way to surprise him would be to somehow incorporate Lilly into the plans.
SO, Saturday night, my sister and I worked into the wee hours of the night trying to compile a second scrapbook of pictures of Lilly and Aaron. I had made him one last year for Christmas and he LOVED it, so I knew this would be a FABULOUS idea...and a way to keep up on all of Lilly's milestones thus far!
ALSO on Saturday, I had an ultrasound done to find out the sex of the baby. Aaron had NO idea I was going to get an ultrasound, and I KNEW it would be freakin' HARD for me to keep it from him! I found out that we're having a BOY!!! Aaron would be on complete emotional overload, between the scrapbook and the news we were having a BOY!
Tuesday night was finally here. We took Lilly to Mandi's house around 6:30 and were on our way to dinner....SUSHI! I HATE sushi, but Aaron LOVES it and he hadn't had it for a LOOONG time since I hate it! He was super excited to eat at one of his old favorite sushi bars. During dinner, I gave him the scrapbook, which, of course, he LOVED.
As dinner finished, Aaron mentioned that he'd like to go to Jag's (his old job) for a quick birthday drink. I knew I couldn't keep the next surprise a secret much longer, so I asked if we could go back to Mandi's first to check up on Lilly. I called Mandi and told her we were on our way so that she could "prepare" Lilly for our arrival!!!!!!
When we walked into Mandi's there were about eight other people there all waiting for the next event....Out walks Lilly from Mandi's room, wearing a blue t-shirt that read "It's a BOY!" and carrying a balloon bouquet of five blue and green balloons! Aaron looked at Lilly, looked at me, looked back at Lilly....SOOOO CONFUSED! "WHAT? HUH?!" I told him that I went Saturday to have an ultrasound and found that we're having a BOY! Aaron seriously smiled bigger than I'd ever seen! He even let out a little scream of excitement! Lilly was PERFECT, smiling, happy... She knew she was doing SOMETHING that was making Daddy so happy...even though she had NO idea why! (Later in life she'll look back and regret all the hoop-la that she participated in welcoming her little brother to the world!)
Overall, the night, although exhausting to plan and keep a secret, was a HUGE success! Aaron keeps commenting on how fabulous his birthday was! Gosh, am I good or am I good?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!

Letting go....

We all have a past. I know this. There are a LOT of things from my past that I'd just rather forget...few things I'd take back, but MANY that I'd like to forget. Our pasts make us who we are. I know that I'm a better person than I was in the past, and I'd like to think that I've LEARNED from the past....but that's ME. What about other people? What if the people we love keep reliving the past? What if they always WISH to relive the past? Is that something to be concerned about?
Recently, I've learned a lot about myself, and myself in a relationship. I've found insecurities that I never knew existed. I've also learned that no matter someone's past, you HAVE to look towards the future or you'll kill yourself worrying about what MIGHT happen. People can always GO BACK, but there's nothing you can do to stop them.
I guess at some point in life, we just have to grow up and realize that the past is the past. The only thing we can do is look forward to the future and hope that it all works out how it's supposed to.